JunJie

2011-07-20T03:01:00.007+08:00

2011-03-23T02:15:00.003+08:00

Hey Hey~~~~~

Officially shifted. (:

Tumblr seems nice.

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Mind > Body

2011-03-22T04:57:00.001+08:00

Just created a new blog on tumblr!

well, a test to see whether I can adapt to this, but anyway…. I wanna share with you guys of a little incident i encountered on a saturday afternoon. Which was 2 days ago, and i was riding the train to town. (For service of course)

There are two parts to this whole incident…

Because recently i realised that i have been rather hot-tempered, one small little action that displeases me can make me furious, and my mind starts to think of nonsensical and sinful thoughts.

And during the train ride, I knew i had to start speaking to God and I asked myself questions.

so overall I realise this very important lesson.. whatever that i’ve been going through, the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the anger the sins. I kept asking God, why can’t i overcome this things? Why must i have them?

But the thing is, God wasn’t the one that gave me anger, he wasn’t the one that gave me pain, he wasn’t the one that give me sins. And please JunJie, have you forgotten that to suffer was your own choice? As the saying goes “pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional” It was the thoughts in my head that caused this, aka myself.

so i learnt that what causes us to sin, was our mind. Devil tempts, devil doesn’t make you sin. It was your mind that tells you to sin. For me when i was angry, i chose to think about the incidents more when i know it will make me anger more when i could have chose to forgive and forget. I chose to make myself more angry and sin. If i could diverse my thoughts to God rather than the incident, it wouldn’t had happened. Just like another good example, while doing assignments, you are tempted to play games. If you focus your thoughts so much on the game rather than on God and your assignments you will eventually start playing games.

SO PEOPLE, LEARN THIS YOUR MIND IS STRONGER THAN YOUR BODY. WHEN YOU BODY IS TEMPTED, FOCUS YOUR MIND ON WHAT’S MORE IMPORTANT AND ON GOD!

STOPPPPP!

2011-03-17T00:31:00.002+08:00

As i was thinking today in the afternoon,

something caught my mind, the word.... "Stop."

Sometimes i really think I am rushing time, I am working too fast, but that's not how we are suppose to work?

There are two things that i concluded.

First, it was not to go too fast. I remember a time i was suppose to meet a friend name JunLin at Yishun Wendys to talk about some issues. And when i reached i immediately called him and went over to another table to talk, without any greetings to other friends. It wasn't because i didn't care, but i missed it. I totally forgotten because i was rushing to meet JunLin. And someone named Davidhoe had to call me and greet me first. I then realise, why am i rushing? As i went fast, i missed out so many things along the way?

Second, it was to stop. Many a times i keep walking and walking and walking, and i forgotten to Stop. "Why stop?" Some may ask. Well, sometimes along the journey, we have to stop to think about what we've done, and what we are gonna do. It isn't about the "Feel~", but it is stopping and seeking God. If i don't, i would feel drained and restless. So it is important to have a pause in life and just seek God. So that you would always go through everything with Him.

God, the two things i've learned, don't go too fast and stopping, i shall learn to overcome this two principles. Yeah.

Untitled even after long period of no entries.

2011-03-16T02:55:00.003+08:00

Sometimes.... There are really nothing in my mind that i wanna post up here.

I really wonder why myself, every single day.

I used to be able to post up convictions daily in the past, but recently.......

Is it because of the recent bad spiritual health?

....Well, now this is a question for myself to think and apply..

"Have my heart been aligned with God daily?"
"Am i seeking God more than sufficiently?"

God, times may be tough. But relationship with you should not be compromised!!!

Time to do something about it.

What am i gonna do?

2011-03-05T13:43:00.002+08:00

You know, my holidays are here. LIke finally!!

Well, i can't complain anything, like i have projects for 3 weeks and everything, but i really gotta thank God for everything during this journey through Studio Project 2.

He was definitely covering me, and helping me along the way as i glorify Him through whatever i could do.

But thats the point now, a question for myself to think about...

It's holidays.... What am i gonna do now?

Definitely, i will sleep as much as i can, and eat as much food as i can.

But putting personal needs aside, what about spiritual needs?

I believe life should be productive and not wasted.

God let's go through this 1 month and a half with You.

Let's do this, and always look up to you.

Well haven finish planning yet, but i know that one of my focuses will be spending time with people. (:

Jiayou!

2011-03-05T13:37:00.000+08:00

Is there any need for me to explain further?

Hard friends

2011-02-28T03:17:00.002+08:00

i've been thinking, what makes my friends, especially the closes ones so hard?

It has been rather tough on me, and my heart would often be tempted to draw lines between me and some friends.

Okay, i know i know, still... i know this way of doing things is not Godly, but really... how then?

I realise this as i was walking home talking to God regarding what happened,

and this was what God actually told me.

All along i have forgotten the principle of focusing my friendships based on God.

The triangular relationship.

My tian, how can i build my relationship with my friends without God?

It has caused me sins, and unable to move our relationship!

God use me, and continue to give me courage and wisdom to go through all my relationships.

Amen.

A letter to sin with a heart filled with God.

2011-02-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

Dear sin... Why do you exist?

Dear sin.. Do you know you have affected my friend's and my life?

Dear sin.. Do you know your existence has made many of our lives miserable sometimes.

Dear sin.. why are you so tempting to our weak hearts?

Dear sin.. You pull us further from being pure.

Dear sin.. I really hate you.

Dear sin.. I don't want you in my friend's life.

DEAR SIN...

Can you just simply go away?

...

Still..

Dear sin,

By God, i know why you exist

Dear Sin,

You affect our lives, but God uses that to grow and mould us.

Dear sin,

No matter how miserable our life is because of you, We can always be joyful in God and He always push us through.

Dear sin,

Our hearts can be strong in God!

Dear sin,

you pull us further but our all-mighty God push us closer.

Dear sin,

I STILL hate you!

Dear sin,

I still don't want you in my friends life as well!

But sin,

I want to let you know, we have our God with us, you are nothing compared to the grace God has given to us freely. If you think we would give in, you're wrong. If you think you are greater, you're even wronger! We have gotta win this fight and be strong, because God is the one and only for us. We will run, but through God's word. Sin, God is over you. (:

Yours Sincerely,

The Child Of God.

2011-02-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

I am deeply burdened throughout the entire day.

So i keep wondering to myself, "Why is it like that?"

It is so hard to balance everything out, when the things doesn't seem to allow you to balance them at all, so how?

I came out with a conclusion while bathing....

I shall think through God, see through God, act through God, speak through God. It's because I think through emotion that i do the wrong things, It's because I see through my emotions that i misunderstand, It's because I act through my emotions that i sin, and it's because I speak through my emotions that i offend people. So.... I shall live my life through God. I am sorry my friends. ^^

2011-02-16T01:44:00.003+08:00

It's been so long...... Shall take some time to talk to God before i carry on with anything.

But before that....

Wanna talk about somethings, why do sins often seem so easily committed than not sinning?

Sometimes and for some people, this question would often pop up, i was wondering to myself.

So why? That is because sin and temptation often causes us to see God not as important anymore, simply because it seems more comforting to just be relieved to sins. A food for thoughts, something to think about and to work on.

God is good, All the time.

2011-02-10T02:07:00.004+08:00

Didn't manage to share this during lifegroup today, so as an act of thanksgiving, i wanna share it here.

For people whom noticed my recent weeks and months, i haven been doing that okay spiritually, due to school stress and burdens laid.

I was stuck between lifegroup/ministry and school.

Definitely not the most pleasant feeling, even now i am doing my video, submission due tomorrow and i do not know when i can get some sleep.

Soul feeling down, soul feeling drained, soul feeling tired. Very tired...

Still, i wouldn't have imagine myself surviving and still standing from all these events..

God, thank You for standing by me, though i still had to step out and fast in the midst of all these devastating "things", you chose to be right there beside me.

When i prayed, you answered me. You gave me strength to go through all these hardships, when i needed encouragements and listening ears from friends and there weren't much, other than the usual "jiayou's" and a few friends like davidhoe that i still appreciate deeply, you were there to hear me rant and encourage me.

Though it seemed impossible, you gave me the courage to believe, and my assignments were able to be completed. I was really nervous and insecure bout the work, but you taught me to say to my friends "We can finish this by today, we gotta believe." So we believed, and you helped us made us through. Thank You! Now i shall go through the night believing, and do it in faith. (:

Thanks.

So we cry.

2011-01-24T04:11:00.002+08:00

No amounts or seriousness of injuries to my foot or my body could make a single drop of tear fall from my eyes, not even stitching, or my parents caning me for some reasons as well.

But there are two things, that can bring me down to my knees and cry all i want like nobody business.

I can cry for God............ And i can cry for my FRIENDS.

I believe many have seen me cry for God, especially camps. I cry because i want more of God to go through my sinful life, and make me anew.

What about friends? I cry because i worry, i cry because my heart broke for them, or they broke my heart.

I do not cry out of anger, i cry out of love.

I cry so hard today not because i hate that person, i cry so hard today because i love that person that s/he hurt me SOOOO DEEEPLY and i still want to change them.

At times it really feels as though i really wanna give up on this friendships, what's the point if i am the one being pierced in the heart?

Reason being, i still love him. That is why i choose to hold on.

That's why i tear out of love..

I believe Jesus teared for us too!

Reliance by faith, not by sight.

2011-01-23T22:54:00.002+08:00

Yes, life is definitely tough, and the road ahead is definitely long.

There's no telling what's ahead, what's afoot until you see it.

Fear comes in, insecurities sets foot, it makes it doubtful to go on ahead.

Because we absolutely do not know what we would tripped on, what kind of road is upfront?

And we get so comfortable with what we have now that we do not see or head for what's ahead.

And of course, even I am afraid of what's ahead.
Many insecurities, not knowing what i would set my foot on.

I have many worries and concerns over my friends and what is gonna happen,

But God i know i still have to face forward, and look at You! (:

I know you will reign, but i really wanna pray for Your presence in my life always so that i am assured that you are in control and you reign.

God i can only rely on You, for my future and my friends. (:

PS. The harder you fall, the stronger you become while climbing back up.

God, i need you and your help. ):

Sing to the lord, play for the lord.

2011-01-20T02:25:00.001+08:00

Guitar uh guitar, my dear guitar.

let me play you, let me progress in my skills.

And let me use you for what you are created for.

Guitar uh, be my source of music to the Lord.
Guitar uh, let me grow in you.

Amen.

LIFEGROUP.

2011-01-18T03:17:00.004+08:00

A few words before this sinful guy goes to sleep for school tomorrow:

I really love this picture.

I was thinking of this lifegroup as i was thinking some stuff..

I really wanna thank God for it, a lifegroup that shares to each other, a lifegroup that will teach other, a lifegroup that does life, a lifegroup that blesses, a lifegroup that helps.

A lifegroup is a group of life-doing people!

Josiah, JunJie.

So we will run, all together our hearts aflame.

2011-01-18T01:41:00.003+08:00

If the only option left for me is to run, i shall run.

Running is embarrassing, running go against my pride, running shows my weaknesses.

But all the more, i should run.

I shall not take pride in myself, i shall not fight because i wanna show that i am strong in the face of the devil.

I shall take pride in God, i shall run because i am strong to resist from the temptation of the devil.

I am running because i lay my life unto God, believing in Him.

I run because I know i am weak and God is strong.

I run because i know because God is strong, he is able to make me strong enough to run.

I shall run, i shall not fight.

Run JunJie run.

New path, New road.

2011-01-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

To pursue new?

Definitely, seeking the unknown is scary and doubtful.

But this is something someone helped me phrased: (JiaJun)

Why new, when it is doubtful?

Why new, when it only complicates?

Why new, when it is simply troublesome?

And why new, when there are easier ways?

Old things are adequate, ever satisfying.

No sweat compared to the new things which you shouldn’t even be trying.

Yet why old when new brings growth?

to move on, you have to reach new heights,

You have to break new grounds.

You have to venture into the unexplored to make a revolution.

A designer shouldn’t keep following a path.

He should go where there is no road, and leave a trail behind.

Cliques, is it really all that's important?

2011-01-13T23:47:00.003+08:00

Cliques....

What are cliques?

Often i feel that cliques are a term that differentiates between people.

I don't really like that.

It's not just me and him, and you and the other.

But its US.

What does it mean to be "all in this together?" just...... you and him? Really?

Of which i just wanna say, North is a North. North aint just this lifegroup, north ain't just these people, north aint just you.

North is North, North is everybody.

North is not called north just for you and him, or me and you. North is called north for everybody. not just us, but everyone else outside as well.

Remember this, we are a family of God.

Friends, i love you guys! ^^

2011-01-05T12:16:00.002+08:00

I remember a friend sending me this chain message,

He told me that friendship is like a balloon, once let go you can never get it back.

This would be what i call, holding on to friendships.

Intentional and everlasting friendship.

Yes i definitely agree, it is hard. It will be difficult, and there will be times where you find this "genuine" friends not genuine at all.

But i have God by my side, so As long as i do friendship base on the Word i know I CAN be a friend to all.

God, i don't want friendships to be the "hi's and bye's" i want friendships to be covenanted.

i am holding to friends, i am holding on to the balloons.

Josiah, JunJie.

333. Helloo, hellooo?

2011-01-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

Jeremiah 33:3

"3‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’"

God i called, you answered.

I will call, and you'll answer.

Thank You God. hahaha.

Thank you and amen.

Nights.

Resolutions.

2011-01-02T18:19:00.002+08:00

An unfinished conversation with a friend while walking around spending time last night,

we were conversing about New year resolution.

I have 3 myself, at least.. FOR NOW.

1. To be a leader of a few, wanna make a difference and impact the world.

2. To maximise my talents and abilities for the entire 2011. Making use of my time wisely.

3. to keep my relationship with friends and God constant no matter where i end up.

Of course there are more to come, there will be NEWER resolutions.

But these three are the ones i would want to achieve.

God help me through.

knock knock.

2011-01-01T20:26:00.003+08:00

There are many incidents in these past few months.

Definitely not the best feeling one would wanna have.

Yes, we talked about they are trials and test for us.

Once we're done with them, we're tested and proven, aka (Fireproof).

Sometimes in the midst of these trials, we face something called "loss of directions."

Yes, as far as we can see. There are many routes for us to choose, there are many paths

We wonder where should we go, what should we do.

We then tend to seek comfort and choose which ever is more favorable for us.

It could be backsliding, giving up. Choosing something of less significance or none at all etc.

Though have you ever wondered, how do you find out which route to take?

There is definitely one route and only one for you.

The route is the path of God.

There is only one path that leads to eternal (fullest) life and the one that we are "called" to take.

How then do we take that path, how do we know?

I believe raphael have made it clear in this week's service.

God's gentle whisper. And his gentle knock on the door.

God knocks at the right path, in hope that we follow and obey.

Follow it.

In addition, understand this everyone.

When God knocks, we go. Not he come.

When a guest comes knocking, we go and open the door.

All in all, all it takes are faith, obedience, and hope.

Open up your ears, and hear......

2010-12-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

As i am sitting here, i really have no idea how to start of even continue this entry.

What can i say? It is practically obvious what i wanna say, but i still can't put what's on my mind to my mouth.

The thing is, how do i really say i am responding to God's calling?

Is it just by my knowledge towards what I should do?

nah.. It is about listening.

Why do we even call it 'God's calling?'

Cos it is a call from God!

And how do we answer that call? By listening.

An example is when someone calls you, how do you answer?

Yes, God let me listen to You. Listen to Your gentle whisper.
At times when i am about to sin, let me listen and respond.

What you say is never gonna harm me, i know it. So i am submitting. amen.

Thankful, i am fireproof!

2010-12-16T01:25:00.005+08:00

Yes, camp has definitely changed my life in a way, and there was definitely breakthrough.

What amazed me was God already imparted and impacted something unto me on the very first day of camp, and i understand.... He wanted me to prepare my heart, and stand by the RELATIONSHIP that i have with him before EXPECTING Him to speak in my life.

What i believe in this camp, is why we go to camp.

I was thinking a few hours ago, about the question that i asked someone to think about during camp.

1. What have you accomplished?

2. What have you not accomplished?

Then it started to make me think.

What's my purpose for asking these questions?

It is simply God's calling for me to ask whether we met our objectives for camp.

I think everyone has said it before, don't go out of camp empty hearted, don't go for camp for the sake of going, don't just go for fun, to experience God.

It is definitely good to evaluate your experience in camp after everything.

1. To hunger more for God during camp. [✓]

2. To build my relationship with God stronger than ever. [✓]

3. To know my unit more, & spend more time with the other North and church folks. [✓]

well hey, i am proud to say i made it through all the 3 objectives, but not by my own, but God helped me through.

I'm even more amazed when God helped me achieved the second one on the very first day when I just reached there from school!

God thank you for your mercy and your grace, You are definitely real not by my own logic and knowledge, but by Your Word and my encounters with You, You have certainly touched my life, literally. (:

Amen.

Church, not lifegroup.

2010-12-08T22:26:00.002+08:00

Friends, what i would gauge only according to the Word of God.

Now.. Personally i am not 'THE' good or greatest friend.

But i understand this.. God i shall build my friendship base on You.

I do not just wanna be a lifegroup loving Christian, but a CHURCH-LOVING Christian!

Amen..

A great friend

2010-12-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

Felt touched by a heart-warming message from this dear friend a week ago, Cyril. (:

Thank you friend. You have been a great person to be with, and you're very encouraging and always give an extra in everything you do.

Thank God for putting you here, you really matter to us all.

And thanks for the celebration 2 days ago. :D

The Right Time.

2010-12-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

No matter how much we know about the Bible, no matter how much we know we have to do something.

Everything has to be done in the "Right time."

There were two incidents that reminded of this value.

One of it was during the WFL course, the other was in Jinlin's birthday letter.

They talked about marriage and excessive encouragements may lead to nagging.

And as the preacher was speaking, i kept thinking. "So how do we give SUFFICIENT amount of encouragements?"; "When do We get married? How do we know?"; "When will i get into a relationship?" all the how and when?

And the three words "The right time" hit me.

Thank God because i really believe that this is true.

We have always been saying God has his own timing.

So all we have to do is believe and be patient.

(Galatian 6:9)

Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

(Romans 5:6)

You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly

There is a right time for everything, Even Jesus died on the cross at the right time according to God Himself.

A touching work of friends.

2010-12-06T01:28:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, today's a very cool day. (:

There were a lot of similarities between people.

First, it was this cup noodles supper, there are all the four flavors of First choice noodles and today all the J's wore Proglogue camp tee. :D

What could be cooler than that? hahaha.

But well, i certainly appreciate whatever happened today.

Though i wouldn't say it is a very awesome one, but it was short and sweet. And what's more important is the presence of people there.

Thank you guys, to tell you the truth i didn't expect it. And when Cyril told us to look over at a small, lighting candle... I didn't know how to react. hahaha. (:

Thanks again!

Friends who cares..

2010-12-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

I am not gonna expect anything, i am not gonna even think about it.

Of course i would be affected, but i am not gonna expect.

God teach me to prioritise and keep focus.

JunJie.

I.... WE need you more.

2010-12-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

God i really believe this period is a time of challenges, everyone is facing something thats stretching them towards their limit.

The Devil is striking, but God I know as much as concerns and fears can conquer over our emotions, You and only You are conqueror over my fears/concerns.

So God i sincerely pray for each and everyone of my friends and close people, that we'll all submit to you. And you'll give us strength and power to overcome all things that the Devil is doing.

God you called us to be more than a conqueror too, let us be what you have set us to be.

What's the result is not important, but the progress, process, and our best. The 'PPB'.

And even more importantly, our relationship with You.

And hence God, *WE* need you more in our lives!

No matter how much we grow, how much we do, we should always go back to You and our relationship.

I, am holding on to this relationship for eternity.

My hunger for You when i was still a young believer, how i imagined You beside me when i was a young believer. God i should not forget the child-liked faith i once had.

God, you are my lover, and you are my God. (:

1. FACEBOOK, TWITTER etc.

- For growth in discipline and build my relationship with God.

- For God to further reign in my life, assessing everything with His Godly hands.

Is it "Malu"?

2010-11-29T23:24:00.003+08:00

To a certain extent, it is true that asking for help is sometimes.... a "malu" thing to do.

Or so it was for me before i truly learn to significance of receiving.

One strong statement was said today: "Just take half half, so it won't be as malu."

I was shocked at the moment, is asking a friend for help really a "malu" thing to do?

Well, perhaps it is for people who sees it in that way.

And i mean, i pretty much thought this way before too. I refused help because i felt 'malu' to trouble my friends, and cause them troubles.

However, it is never a good thing to feel that way.

In the bible, we were called to give... and receive.

If you think about it, how can you give without receiving. They work side by side,

Because if people continue to have the mindset of not receiving, that receiving is very "malu"

How on earth are people suppose to give? They are just hindering people from giving, and obeying God.

I said it again we are called to give and receive.

To conclude everything, don't be afraid to ask for help too, it is part of life which God wants us to help each other and be by each other.

I Love to help too. (:

JunJie.

2010-11-28T22:17:00.002+08:00

I need to make more time to talk to God more.

THe conversation i had with God was awesome. At times of troubles, it doesn't seem draining. At times of depression, everything seems fine in God. (:

God, in your presence my heart is calm, in your presence my mind SHOULD be on You.

In Your presence all things are nothing. In your presence i can be strong and i know there's nothing to worry about. (:

Ouch..

2010-11-27T22:33:00.005+08:00

One of the most unpleasant feeling is the feeling of not being able to go service because of a workshop NYP made for us.

Though saying that, i did learn something on that day. There was one thing that really talked to me that afternoon, and it was a video showed.

It is regarding a speech made by a man whom dreamed to be a comedian.

"Ouch..." that's what he said, and that's what he named his speech.

It wouldn't make much sense if i just told you that, so let just skip to the parts i wanna say.

Ouch, this is one word we all know, but yet just treat it as some form of response to pain.

In truth, there are some values we can learn, if we see it in the right way.

I believe everyone already know the principle of falling and climbing back up again.

The process of growth, and the ups and downs.

When you fall

It's good to look at your growth so far,

When you climb back up

It's good to take the first step. To progress.

It's okay to have an "ouch" once in a while, but when it feels discouraging and seem impossible, it's just about believing and taking the first "step."

Thanks Friends.

2010-11-25T23:44:00.001+08:00

A wonderful fellowship with 2 great friends. (:

Shared life and talked about ourselves, i enjoyed times like this.

Ironically, Quality time with friends seems the most appealing thing for me at this period of time due to assignment stress, school stress, and insufficient sleep/rest.

Having friends around soothes my heart and mind, and spending long hours together is the best.

James Wong, BinHua, JiaJun during shepherding, Cyril, Jinlin etc.

I should spend more time huh GOd? haha. ^^

We should build on a lifestyle of doing life together.

2010-11-22T01:19:00.003+08:00

This hasn't been on my mind for some time now, well at least not until yesterday when all of a sudden, my mind was focused on the female leaders in our church. Not because of lust, but curiosity and thoughts of their leadership and their positions.

Whatever that had happened has happened, i wouldn't go around the situation like a Dog over thieves or bones. (not the best description but you get the idea.)

Certain things that got me thinking as i was walking with a friend to his house, which i think most of you would by now know where i am going at after seeing it.

1. Women in church preaching.

2. Speaking in Tongues.

3. The extent of our Bible Knowledge.

4. Our Standing.

I have my own opinions and thoughts on this few questions, but hey, just wanna say as long as what i do or what i believe in does not go against the word of God, i will stand by it and stand strong. What's more important is my relationship with God.

Connected.

2010-11-16T01:01:00.003+08:00

M program hadn't end more than a week, and to tell you the truth, it was certainly a great experience, and a lot of good fellowship too.

A lot of us have learn a lot, and to sum it all up...

It all goes back to 4 values:

1. Tough on ourselves.

2. Own our walk with God.

3. Relating with Purity.

4. Never give up.

Throughout the entire 5 set training, my learnings increased per sets.

What i had really learn were pretty simple:

They were more like reminders rather than new learnings, most of them are things we all should know by now.

1. The first day of M program, of course i was always the lazy-kind of person, and running may be my interest but it is definitely not the most appealing for me in a hot morning. However, after the run, I have learn to persevere and stay vision minded throughout my run, never giving up despite the tired and worn out body as everything's on the mind. I was also told that I should not take pride and be competitive and I should encourage as i run.

2. Second day, it further convinced me to be noncompetitive, cos i should be a God pleaser and not a people pleaser! The road may be dry and rough, but i can do it. There are hindrance, obstacles like the wind but i should endure. Cos i know i can do it.

3. On the third day, i really struggled to keep up with my pace, but i am proud to say i made it. I struggled because there are certain distractions that caused me to lose focus, but i overcame it in the end. Also this day marked to first 40 story high building climb throughout the entire 3weeks! It was certainly devasting, but i made it too, i neglected my physical self and kept on climbing.

4. The fourth, and the best day of all. I had the best run ever, we ran 10km/25 rounds and by far its the longest run we had in M program. I never stopped, i never lose focus, i kept in mind i want to finish this race with God. I also learn to not forget my past experience, good or bad, so i would remember, learn my mistakes and grow. This taught me to be responsible in my run with God too.

5. The last day of M program, i have to say i am both happy, yet sad. I am glad that i completed the 5 days, but i am sad that M program actually ended since we had alot of memories. Still, i have learn quite a number of things on that day. I learn to REALLY be tough on myself and never give up. Seriously, the 4 values are tattooed onto my brain and heart now. What's worst was when My body really couldn't take anymore strain from climbing the 200 story building. But i knew...... I knew my mind could, that is why i kept asking God for strength, believing that my mind can conquer my body and God can conquer my mind. I knew i just had to ask God for strength and not depend on myself. I didn't want to give up, though i was tempted to, i wanted to say "Hey, i did the actual 3 sets, my body can't take it already so the additional 2 i will tell hoe to allow me to do it on my own some other time" but i was immediately corrected by God. I heard a voice "What about your sheep?" And i hesitated. I Can't say i will do it next time, i want to do it now! I will shepherd my sheep now, today not tomorrow, next week or next year or whatever! Neither will I with my relationship with God!

So far, it was beneficial for every guys with 2 ball and 1 stick. (:

We are reconnected, and realigned.

And i shall remain as that, and not disconnect and disalign myself. Not my purpose, not my 2 ball 1 stick, not with God!

JunJie; Josiah.

Let us Pray Pray Pray Pray Pray~~~

2010-11-12T01:19:00.003+08:00

The person to your right..

Yes, that.

Kah Hoe, he is someone whom i have not known very long. Only since Prologue have i started to even speak a single word with him.

But anyway, i think he is indeed one encouraging and supportive person.

I would really like to thank him and appreciate him. (:

Recently had a few msn chats with him while he's at Malaysia, and the most recent ones are today

Where he initiated to ask me about my day.

All went into the topic about our struggles and what we want to strive and pray to God.

This cause me thinking, i know fully well what i should pray for.. Shouldn't i start being prayerful?

Relying on God for more.

1. Sheep.

To have full support from God, and guidance plus strength. Need all his help in this as i surrender and believe.

2. Family.

To be a salt and light, and a medium to show them hope. To be able to impact their lives and being able to go for camp.

3. School.

Better management, and continue to do my best and not give up or being complacent.

4. Character.

To be able to live with Godly attitudes, not going through my life with my emotions and be more aware of my surroundings. To do that i have to be tough on myself and relate with Purity.

Thank you Kahhoe for reminding me to talk to God. (:

Secondly and lastly, Justin, the one at the left hand side.

This isn't much linked to praying, but i just wanna tell you how much i appreciate you being by my side at this current point of time.

I think the most we did before for fellowship was you disturbing me often right? haha.

But now, we went into more deep relationship and i had even more fun with you.

Really, whenever I see you i would always feel like smiling too. (:

lol, hope to be able to spend more time with you, and Jiayou For the last few papers! :D

JunJie!

2010-11-04T03:09:00.002+08:00

M program commenced 2 weeks ago, and 3 more weeks to go.

I'm wondering, how has it been effective to us? Or rather, how faithful have we been to the M program?

The above picture are just some 3rd rate photoshop stuff i did, but it speaks something to me when i felt that i did not put a smile on God's face again.

Being tough on our personal self, how have we accomplished that?

I am proud to say that this program has taught me to be more faithful in managing my time and assignments.

But that's not all there is to it.. I need to be tough on other areas of my life.

Same Goes to you guys, What are some areas you need to be tough in?

Part of being tough is being responsible.

So can we start acting more responsible?

Can we start focusing on God rather than other unnecessary things??

Haha.

Jiayou!

Shirt on the Shoulder.

2010-11-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you a short brief story of myself today called the 'shirt on the shoulder'. (:

Today started unexpectedly, school wasn't as bad as i thought it would be, had a lot of fun doing 3D modeling actually.
And I did my work happily, not thinking about anything else.
After school when i reached home, i started using the comp, nothing thinking about anything else too, i just carried on with what i am doing.
I started feeling warm and uncomfortable, so i decided to take a bath.
As i was about preparing for my bath, i was choosing what to wear to make myself comfortable.
As i got everything, i walked towards to bathroom. And suddenly, i can't find my shirt when my short and towel were in my hands!
I traced back my steps and started searching every part of the path i walked.
Spent 5mins searching, and then started to feel some weight on my shoulders, as i looked, i find myself stupid.
Then i remembered i put the shirt on my shoulders to grab the shorts and towel on the ground...
Why on earth did i not notice or remember?

THe moral of this story is, it taught me some lessons..

Every part of the story tells me something, I have not been paying much attention to what God is whispering to me.

In school, at home, even things that i do...

Now, i made a convenant with God saying I will talk, i will listen and i will pay more attention to my surroundings.

On facebook, there's an app called God wants to tell you today, and even it told me to have more awareness for the past few days. So God, you're awesome, haha.

Thanks for telling me what i did not do. (:

Fire burning heart.

2010-11-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

As i looked at my work, standard has been dropping. ):

I wouldn't blame the lack of effort, but the lack of passion.

Recently, i just made a prayer to God, to keep my fire of passion burning, never diminished nor extinguished.

However, my passion towards things i like kept getting smaller and smaller.. ):

It could be because stress, it could be because i am tired, it could even be because of influence.

But God, remind me that i am doing it for you. And remind me of the joy of doing this.

Let it burn, let it burn.

Never stop hungering for more!

JunJie.

Troubled and as clueless as a monkey.

2010-10-31T00:39:00.003+08:00

Life has been rather happening for me for the past 2-3days, though it seems like a bad thing, but after some thoughts, i think it's definitely a blessing in disguise.

Still, when i say it is bad, how can i prove that it is bad? When i say it is good, how can i prove that it is good?

I have no facts, i have no truth of my own.

But i know this one thing, God is in control. I have nothing to worry, i know not of skills to settle this things. Well, of course they are important, however it is not about skills. It is about Faith and the presence of God in my life.

Remember this JunJie. You should know that God will help, keep your flame burning.

Changes are made, different group, different study environment, different ways of leading, different ways of doing things. But God i understand fully that you do not change. So i believe, regardless of the circumstances, i know you shall conquer all else.

Now, what i have to do now is to contemplate about the choice, and some thoughts of my own. (:

God i look forward to this spending time. ^^

Loads too heavy

2010-10-29T23:59:00.003+08:00

God, this isn't how i wanted my week to be like.

How i expected it to be a pleasant day, didn't turn out that way.

Continuous work, unable to satisfy what i wanna do while i still can.

And Still, i have to step out and compromise.

God, I know they are like homeworks/assignments to help us in ways we do not see.

So give me the strength to go through this, in school, lifegroup, etc etc.

Need you always. (:

Whoo!

2010-10-29T00:45:00.002+08:00

YES! Surely, it's worth a lot of joyful cheers. :D

I realise how important it is to do my best in things i have to do, to be responsible and faithful.

The feeling of accomplishment through that is truly the greatest, as i know i did not take advantage of God's given authority and possessions. (:

Haha, thank God for helping me this far, teaching me to learn my mistakes and simply keep growing.

In this semester, i have truly learn what it means to really feel God more. :D

Thanks. I shall continue to do my best, and never be complacent. :D

Concerns/fears conquered by God's grace.

2010-10-27T23:43:00.003+08:00

After so long not posting anything in this blog, i wonder if its really "dead."

Leaving so much dust, i deem that i am not faithful towards my blog. haha.

But that's not the point, yet still there's a link.

WHat i have, let me cherish it. What i have, let me be faithful and responsible.

To be so concern over so much thing, yet not responsible or faithful, is the greatest mistake.

Let me plan to accomplish what you called me to do.

1. UNAS' event game planning with the central people.

2. Planning for shepherding.

3. School assignment.

4. Fellowship with friends.

5. Saving up of cash.

6. Salt and light in family, especially at this period. /:

7. Finish Encouragement cards.

8. Friends. (Concerns over them, and helping them in their life.)

Sure, a lot of things huh? But there are more to many task than this.

God let me have the strength and courage to accomplish them.

I know i can, to look unto you if there are hindrance. (:

Thank you and amen.

Full surrender. God will help.

2010-10-18T09:34:00.002+08:00

I remembered Pastor Shirley asked us a few days ago:

What does a city on the hill means to you, if the hill represents the church?

Personally, i thought since the Word says "You Are..." simply means you are the city.

So i contemplated at that moment, what does it mean?

I came to an answer being

We are a city, that is known to all due to the hill (CHURCH).

We are a city that welcomes people to come, no one is left out, and our light that shines will provide hope and guidance for them.

So i realise that its not When God calls you to do it, but God ALREADY called you when you first accepted Jesus into your life.

We are a city, and we have to live up to the purpose of a city.

run. Run. RUn. RUN! RUNNN!

2010-10-11T18:46:00.003+08:00

Recently i felt as though i am going through a one man war against the world.

What the... Honestly, I was really glad that i went for the Baptism despite being encouraged not to by my parents.

Cos for the entire day, i felt that I am Josiah, Josiah am I, that kind of feeling.

And the feeling of God will always help has been encouraging me and made me want to do more.

But at times, i went too high profile with my life that people knows all about it, about my baptism about how i am serving in church, my life etc.

That i might sometime feel persecuted because i just simply serve God.

Of course, there's nothing wrong about sharing...

But my friend said this to me yesterday: "I like Satan, i don't like God. "B guy" will like satan too. Cos we anti C....."

I mean, it was straight at my face on facebook that he said that.

And even after that very day, there were things that made me feel very insecure.

And the only thought was to talk to my unit members, and to be at their side.

The idea is not that i want to be stucked within my social boundaries, but I realise i really can't run this race alone.

Even as i was bombarded with emotional problems, there were people like Joshua whom is willing to hear me out.

I have people running with me, and i'll run with them.

"run run run RUN!" that is how i am gonna encourage my friends.

God thank you for HELPING me. (:

I shall run, keep running and know that there are people by me, and You are with me. (:

thank you.

JWJJ.

2010-10-10T21:26:00.003+08:00

One of the biggest thing that i would see change in is my way of life.
How I see myself as a Christian from now onwards.

Josiah, a name that signifies Help from God, is truly something that i would live for.

As timid as i am as a human, Sharlene prophesised for me that i would not be the same, after i've become Josiah.

Its time to rely and believe God will help in every areas of my life.

And to see things more clearly with my spiritual eyesight.

No matter what, things shall change.

I will grow, for God, i shall do my very best.

Even if it goes way beyond my comfort zone. (:

Jiayou Josiah Wong Jun Jie. Haha (JWJJ)

God called you for this, and there are more ahead, keep an eye out, and continue believing!

Amen.

serotonin

2010-10-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

One of the most sian feeling is to feel drain when you have been giving your all to do something.

As Davidhoe has said, ministry is neverending.

But don't mistaken it as something we have to be "busy" with everyday.

Or you'll end up the same as the guy shown above!

I experience this before, times when i overworked myself.

But the book i read regarding a pastor life, says a lot.

There's a term called the serotonin. It is a hormone that are used as we work, and need to be "recharged" after that or else, something called the adrenaline, also a hormone shall substitute it as we continue working.. Overusage of that hormone will lead to drastic things.

The main point is, there are times we need to work, but there are times we also need to rest our mind.

One simplest way is just simply talking to God.

The book named reasons and consequences which i will not state it here, but it is certainly an interesting book that tells me of all our lives.

The mind need a balance. (:

But it also taught me to have compassion too. :D

Hardships and Troubles.

2010-10-05T02:18:00.002+08:00

For Woodlands people, you should know that there was a downpour this afternoon.

And for most people, they would not want to go out at this weather. Neither did I, but i had to go 888plaza anyway. I encountered the rain, and experienced it getting bigger as i went closer to the venue, and it just struck me as i thought.

I've been facing some terrible test along the way through my life, and it has been very discouraging for me as i can't seem to succeed and clearing the test completely.

I've been slightly better, but it took a lot in order to succeed to that extent only.

But i forgotten what it means to be tested to grow.

It made quite a lot of sense while i was on my way to 888. It's because before i left the house, it was sunny. After i left the house, it started raining. Along the way, the rain got bigger and bigger, to a point where i couldn't hold my umbrella steady and there was a thunderstorm.

It was definitely scary, as there was no telling if the multiple thunder and lightnings would struck you.

But that's the whole point, along the way as we are tested. It will get tougher, but there are always a cover. God.

I had my umbrella, and i told myself i have God's grace, so i believe i'll be fine.

Same applies to hardships. Like i said, as we proceed, things would get tougher, storms may come. But we still continue, and as we continue we would need a few things. Strength, courage, grace, and mercy.

I needed those, i need those in order for me to continue growing. And i should not be discouraged, as i know God's grace is with me, His presence is with me.

I gonna go through the storm with You God. For it is stated, and sang in 'Still'

"When the ocean comes and thunders roar, i will soar with you, above the storm father you are king over the flood, i will be still and know you are God."

2010-10-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

As much as we wanna repent and avoid temptations..

What i thought of was, the more important thing is to ask God.

God alone shall reign.

2010-10-01T20:36:00.003+08:00

"For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict."

Luke 21:15 (NIV)

I tell you this one thing, what i am so wrong about today is to think that i can do this by myself, i cant solve problems by my own ways and everything.

Really, who am I to judge whether things can be done?

I wanna do this with God now, i wanna believe in God and let Him do His work, not my work.

This song speaks a lot, God alone can rescue, not me.

Even if i do have the compassion and willingness to help others walk right with God, God is the only one that can save them!

God let me rely on You more, not stress about the problems. Amen!

My Best.

2010-09-30T22:29:00.004+08:00

Basically, the things i want to do in order to succeed?

-> Doing my best.

How?

1. Step out of comfort zone.

2. Ask God for strength.

Why?

1. I see the value.

2. To please God.

A really interesting conversation with Branel today.

We've been talking a whole lot about doing our best in exams, in leading people, in leading our sheep etc.

But never really gave any practical steps, or teach the values.

"(Luke 21:1-4) As he looks up while saying this, he sees rich people depositing their gifts to the temple, while a poor widow put in just two coins. He says, "this poor widow has put in more than the others. All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on."

and "⁵Some of his disciples were remarking about how the temple was adorned with beautiful stones and with gifts dedicated to God. But Jesus said, ⁶"As for what you see here, the time will come when not one stone will be left on another; every one of them will be thrown down."

I understand well that verse 5 talks about the end of age. But I interpreted it in way, slightly different:

A question to ask is What's doing my best?

Is it by giving everything physical that i have like the riches and the widow did? Of course, that is not wrong. Absolutely not.

But what set the widow and riches apart was not the physical wealth only, but the spiritual wealth too! Its the heart of the people!

I agree that things physical do not stay long, thats why we keep saying don't go for temporal things but eternal.

What both the widow and riches gave was temporal, and what Jesus meant was the heart.

It is not necessary that we give every cent of our allowance to God that proves our commitment and proves that we are doing our best. You could, but what is more important is but our hearts.

The Widow did her best and gave every cent that she had just to show faith .

Jesus saw that, it took her beyond her comfort zone, but she saw the value. (:

She is someone good to learn from.

From how she shows her best. (:

I am gonna do everything for God, and my commitment is to do my best for God. (:

I wouldn't say its entirely true though. (:

But yeah, haha. I just wanna encourage people to do their best jiu ke yi le.

In Christ I shall Conquer.

2010-09-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

Surely, In Christ alone, only.

He is the all in all!

Best.. Friends?

2010-09-29T13:36:00.002+08:00

I heard from someone before who asked me, we have different interest (Maybe), different style of leading and doing things. How come we can become friends?

Hmm.. I won't say i am disagreeing, i mean.. Yeah, common interest are one of the important factors to determine how close the two person are, but is that all? I wonder........

It came to me while i was thinking a few days ago, what made me become close friends with whom i hang out more with.

I realised that every best friend that i came across with except one, has different personality and interest as me, but we could have great fun and experience together and always share.

So how now is the main subject that builds this relationship?

I have no idea yet.. But i came to the idea of the word "common."

True, friends should have common 'things' that they have, but it does not necessarily be interests and styles. But instead, backgrounds, character, ability to understand one another as such.

Perhaps its true? But more importantly, best friends should keep their relationship on a firm line with God. (:

God i pray for more intimate friendship in You. amen.

Our life has a goodness in it. (:

2010-09-29T00:56:00.003+08:00

One of the very few things that i would really agree with Glenn was, it is not about how badly i've done, or how good i've done compared to others. But its about thanking God for what you have done so far.

Of course, that only applies to doing our best.

(http://identityinlife.wordpress.com/)

What i meant was, honestly, i am feeling rather inferior and nervous about my semestral results which i have no idea when will it come out cos i was not informed yet. And as i saw Glenn's result, whom scored well, i felt rather inferior cos i know i did not do too well due to certain modules. However, what really hit me about his post was regarding being a God-pleaser, and doing things with intentions of pleasing God. What was my intention in doing my best during my school days?
Wasn't it to glorify God? Why did i attend school even though i am already late? Wasn't it to please God and put a smile on His face?

True enough, why not just smile with the mindset that God has been with us? haha.

I believe, even if i did not score too well, God has been blessing me. Cos i know he helped me in my colours while i was still unadapted to it. He helped me get a hold of certain techniques. (:

Thank You God. (:

You Rock!

2010-09-27T01:33:00.002+08:00

One of the very few things i wanna do in this week is:

1. Fulfill what i stood idle during the past 3-4weeks.

2. To shepherd my sheep effectively since holiday started.

3. To Have sabbath every week.

4. Fast and pray.

5. Continue to grow in administrating.

6. Outreach, Sowing, Build Relationships.

7. Finish Every Card.

8. Save Up for others.

9. Savings.

10. To be a pillar for everyone.

and so for....

All these seem rather impossible to do in a week or two..

Even i feel this way, i wonder how i will be able to do it.

During my Quiet time God just showed me this song, as i started worshipping.

Really, Nothing is Impossible by God's strength and grace.

I believe that i can do this, even if some are not able to accomplish, it will be somehow done sooner or later. (:

Now then, How?

I believe, i should apply the "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail." Principle.

Start plannig JunJie.

Jiayou, you'll definitely be able to do it. (:

2010-09-24T19:45:00.002+08:00

Whatever the situation, wherever our positions may be..

I really think understanding is very important.

This implies to me a lot.

Without clarity, i would not and should not judge nor conclude anything.

This is just doing things my own way.

Yup, jiayou JunJie.

2010-09-24T02:20:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking a lot regarding myself eversince time comes to a point where i become rather... critical.

What is it that i was troubling about.. i was trying to ask God that.

And, one word.. "Respond."
I need to learn how to respond, be it responding in terms of leadership, in terms of friendship, or even in terms of God's calling.

Which eventually led me to being spirit led. I've been talking a lot regarding this, but have not worked well.

I realise its because i did not respond, now take note, i said did not, not could not.

I could, but i would not.

But thank God for teaching me to have the discipline to respond. (:

I believe it is one step further, and of course, many more to go. (:

Jiayou!

A great night, in fact.

2010-09-22T00:36:00.001+08:00

A great night with God. Its good to have good rest. (:

Thanks.

JunJie has become cheerful again!

2010-09-21T00:17:00.003+08:00

What a fun day! (:

Expected a Monday to be full of "blues" due to the need to go back to school today.

But instead, the exhibition turned out to be rather productive and useful.

Not only that, after the the whole tour around the school of interaction, i went to 888.

Had a demorilising yet fun game of Monopoly deal with Koksoon, JianHao and Joshua.

And not forgetting the childhood experience we had at a nearby carpark playing not with the candles nor the lantern, but the fire. (:

Thanks for making it such a great day for me, and letting me know i have friends to brighten up my life. (:

A call at night seem like music to my ear all of a sudden. ^^

To Be Truthful.

2010-09-20T01:58:00.004+08:00

You know, i have always known that truth hurts. It really do, most of the time.

However, i also know love hurts.

One thing i told my sheep today..

"I wanna be truthful to you, otherwise, i would fail as your shepherd."

I was never courageous enough to speak of the truths of their flaws to them, afraid of making them mad.

But sitting back and just seeing them commit the same wrongs again and again, the one that has the most problem is myself!

So today, i told this sheep of mine... BRANEL.

I told him, i wanted him to grow, and not just see him through, but do it with him.

I wanted to see him grow in his walk with God and his relationship.

So i told him one thing that he ought to grow in.

Though i took a lot out of me, but this feeling of wanting to do it because i know it pleases God really helped.

He absorbed it, and he listened.

God continue to touch his heart, and use him in this Kingdom. Let him grow and become more like You.

I shall continue to fast for my sheep. (:

(Matthew 14:31)

"Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

(Matthew 26:31-35)

"Then Jesus told them, "This very night you will all fall away on account of me, for it is written: "I will strike the shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered.' But after I have risen, I will go ahead of you into Galilee." Peter replied, "Even if all fall away on account of you, I never will." "I tell you the truth," Jesus answered, "this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times." But Peter declared, "Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you." And all the other disciples said the same."

Jesus Himself was truthful to His diciples. (:

Sabbath!

2010-09-18T22:38:00.003+08:00

Recently, I have been lost in Words. Perhaps i have not been seeking GOd hard enough?

I was pulled out from the pioneering ministry for a moment to work on school, and was just freed from the ministry of school, now comes back the pioneering and disciple-making ministry again.

I am not saying it isn't good, nor is it worth the time. I mean, it is obviously worth every time.

But often, i would really really like a break. To take time to rest physcially and mentally by simply spend the entire day with God.

But i have been idle from this ministry for so long that there are much to be done.

Of cos there's the sabbath, but i really wanna take 2-3 days off from all things to explore with God. (:

Imagining that excites me cos i know i have God with me.

Rest.. true, whatever Joshua said. Rest by having Joy in doing things for God.

So there's that.. Whatever i said, part of it was to rant on my tiredness. Another is trying to say, its not an entirely right thing to say.

At times, why not try to make time, rather than find time?

haha. Jiayou JunJie.

Sabbath for the win. (:

2010-09-16T21:55:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really think language is fun and interesting.

But often i find language an irritating and complicated thing.

Words are use in different way, reasons and situations. And It must be used at the right timing.

At least, whatever i said is how i feel and my opinion...

Honestly speaking, I am someone who will try to structures my words often first before saying, which is kinda an extreme thing, cos i do it too much.

But often this structuring did not turn out as well as i thought for some people..

That is why, i should not think to the extent where i do not go back to God?

I remember people telling me, don't be afraid of what to say, but let the spirit tell you what you SHOULD say. uh.. hmm..

Nah.. just some random thoughts.

Anyway, one think that Joshua told me which i think is really true for me.

"Encourage others and you yourself will be uplifted by the encouragements too."

hmm.. i had noticed this while writing cards, whenever i write, i would be encouraged too. (:

haha. Interesting fact. ^^

Imperfections.

2010-09-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

I really would like to swear the "damnations" right now.

But at times like this, i really ought to keep my mind calm.

No matter how hard i try, people will never meet my expectations.

And that's probably the best. I can never meet other's expectations too. (:

God reminded me of how people are imperfect?

I once heard a friend, whom might also read this blog entry.. whom said he wanted to remain short sighted without glasses because he wanted to see everyone as perfect, as equal.

But i do not agree, its because people are imperfect thats why we should love, its because we are imperfect thats why we receive acceptance etc.

Its because we are different that's why we are strong, as long as we accept one another.

Though the conflict was not resolved, nor did the conversation turned out well, im still glad that GOd showed me differences, and given me chances to regain the relationship back. (:

Yup.

Thanks God, appreciate it. (:

Change for the better, i Should.

2010-09-12T16:45:00.002+08:00

With much anticipation for today's shepherd-sheep outing, many couldn't make it. lol, but at least i had a good conversation and time with Joshua and Junlin. (:

Though it causes me think a lot, but i learn a lot.

However, some learnings are irritable as it made me realise certain traits in me that i ought to change.

Not saying change isn't good, but taking a look at how i live life, that ain't good.

I laid so many expectation on my friends that i doubt this friendship would last if it goes on.

Examples like i expect people to reply my messages, though sometimes they really don't.

I expect people to understand me, but in fact, they can't possibly know every single about my life.

I am glad that God gave me chances to change. (:

Thanks.

JunJie.

2010-09-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

The JunJie now shall change. (:

And grow.. haha. (:

Im glad that God answered, and i feel Him in me more now.

Thanks, I will continue to do my best for You, according to Your will.

Anyway, the event made a great fellowship with everyone of my family members. (:

Can't wait for tomorrow. :D

thats all.

On a side note, I feel weird when "some" people touches me. Most people i've talked to should know. :D

Its not unspiritual, but just certain boundaries i've set cos of some particular reasons, haha. (:

God's Grace Is Enough.

2010-09-08T22:47:00.004+08:00

2nd day of the consecutive 9hours lesson.

What a day, a day of rejection for my work, a day when i almost lose faith in God completely.

Even times when i prayed, the rain didn't seem to stop for the event.

Times when I prayed to God for my work, but it didn't seem to work.

But what Joshua told me "Do things not because of stress and expectations, but just simply by pleasing God alone." and while listening to this song on my playlist, it just struck me with deep guilty of doubting God again since level up camp.

You know, what have been said about life not being a bed of roses, have been forgotten.

Not everyday you will receive good things, not everyday you'll be able to have pleasure with God answering Your prayers.

Not saying God does not answer our prayers, but he know's His own timing and know that there's a good in everyday, which is God himself. (:

And so, I came across something that questions my walk with God, 'Are worldly things more important that my relationship with God?' o.O

Eventually, while at school, the rain really stopped, and i had my friend to help me with my work.

It's His grace alone that i need, It's Him a lone that is all I want.

God, continue to let me have the Spiritual awareness of Your presence, and always know to believe and know Your grace.

Thanks for helping GOd. (:

Relationship WIth God.

2010-09-07T09:03:00.004+08:00

I guess there are a lot of times when people post, tweet, facebook whatever that is in their mind at that moment..

But never step back and think about their thoughts.

THis are times when I, specifically I, have to start contemplating.

To allow you guys to know more regarding this, i've been having the feeling that im doing funny funny things nowadays. totally different from before, use to be the kind that is not so aggressive.

And what i meant was, i should start talking to God more.

AKA, Sabbath Hour.

God, cos i cherish this relatoship with You, i will do something about it.

Thanks for teaching me that early in the morning..

I will start my day like this always. (:

Thanks.

Being Offended, and being Offending.

2010-09-06T22:48:00.003+08:00

Indeed, being offended makes me feel insignificant, unwanted, and unappreciated.

Cos, friends that are close to you, hurting you like you are nothing to them.. creates a storm in your heart.

How true is it to say love hurts.

Because i love my friends, their words often hurts me. ):

However, thank God for ellina as i spoke with her regarding this matter.

And i do agree, we can't expect people to meet my expectation always..

Of course, i still believe that there are things that are obvious enough to see if its appropriate, but the what's more important is i can't force in principles and expectations on them. (:

These are nothing but pride.

I too am offending others.

Also, how would people know when i never tell?

How would people know just about everything about me?

Well, it is important for me and others to have more concern about others feelings, but no one is perfect to know everything.

Thanks Joshua for reemphasizing that for me too. (:

God God God..

I commit this unto You, and i shall learn. (:

Lastly, Sorry! (:

On a side note, an apology is not something you just simply say after a fault. (:

2010-09-05T23:22:00.001+08:00

God, at times when i really don't feel like doing it anymore, please give me the strength to continue standing.

At times when i feel weak, give me strength to remain focus and be firm.

amen.

The gifts that's given.

2010-09-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

Does it takes people with gifts of encouragements to encourage people?

Does it mean only people who has been given the gift of encouragement can encourage?

Are they true?

Not at all!

What Davidhoe said today was really true, If i do not have character but charisma, then learn to have character.

If you do not have courage, seek courage from the Lord.

Now then, does it takes a natural leader to be leader?

Not at all!

THe extent of being effective may differ, but that does not mean those who are not natural in leading can't lead.

So don't misunderstand.

God, I am not given the gifts of music, nor singing, nor media etc. But i will learn in Your name, in Your glory, and be part of them too. (:

Help me Lord, to keep up with my guitar skills, singing, and media based stuff..

Seek help, and jiayou!

TIme.

2010-09-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I gotta believe.. God has his own time.

(John 11-12)

This is a test of patience and faith.

God, i am devoted to You.

Let me believe.

Again, God's calling.

2010-09-03T21:25:00.003+08:00

What i am suppose to do, sometimes i really don't feel like doing it because i am someone who's lazy.

But procrastinating for the entire week, i finally going to do it.

Further waiting only makes it worst.

Whatever God told me to do, i shall do.
Gotta learn to apply that.

Your Best, not You're the best.

2010-09-03T11:56:00.003+08:00

In a class, what determines our skills and abilities and not by raw talents.

But how hard we try, and whether we do our best to grow this talents. /:

God, give me the strength to step out and practice, practice and practice.

It's not about being the top, but using your talents to the fullest potential.

Prompts.

2010-09-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

When God prompts me, i have to learn to listen and follow.

Obedience requires me to step out of my comfort zone, but i understand that there are meanings and it will lead to clearer insights.

God please give me courage to speak up, and step out.

amen.

Weak but not strong.

2010-09-01T22:27:00.003+08:00

Suppose to send "it" out hours ago..

However, i feel tired and upset, by the way i live life, by times when i am soooo unspiritual..

Times and again, i forsake what God taught me...

And at times like this, i really wanna seek God before i really send "it" out.

Think through, and i believe i need God in this.

Well..

God has spoken,

On this day, God wants you to know

... that it's time to let people see your inner beauty. It's time to let people know the real you. Be who you are, not who you think people want you to be. You are more beautiful on the inside than you realize, and you need to share that beauty with others. Be transparent, let your guard down, let people know the real you.

This is one perspective of seeing this.

It tells me to be weak in others, not to be strong. This shows the real me.

But it totally links to what i've faced today,

At times, don't act strong. It only makes you even uglier.

This way of acting strong is having pride.

Pride pride, i never liked your existence.

Why do i let you live strongly inside of me, why does the others let you live so strongly?

God, teach me to rid of this pride.

And let me be anew.

Phones.

2010-08-31T22:41:00.004+08:00

My Mother told me, "Changingg phone is possible."

I am someone who doesnt really care much about what phone i use, as long as it is usable, it does not spoils easily (except for times when i ACCIDENTALLY drops it.) and consist of functions that i would most probably use.

But looking at my current phone.......... It's definitely a 'must change'.

Contract ends on 18October..

A month to think of what phone to change to..

And i just can't make up my mind, but i've been given suggestions.

Sony Ericsson Xperia X2

Xperia X10

Motorola BackFlip

This are the very few that my sister recommended me.

I find it ironic to have all three choices to be these types. Those flip fip types?

I just want those that are easy to use, and wont cause aches on the hands while typing messages. /:

Worst comes to Worst, My mother encourages me to get an Iphone. =.=

Which i don't intend to get...

I mean, i already have an Itouch, so why an Iphone?

I don't get my mother's intention, especially when she says "Everyone's longing for an iphone but why you don't like?"

This is my first time troubling over finding a phone.

But, this are my criteria for the new phone.

1. Change my student plan from 500 free messages to totally free.

2. Camera phone.

3. User friendly, ESPECIALLY WHILE MESSENGING!

4. Not to flashy/fanciful.

5. Not too complicated.

I suppose that's all.

2010-08-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

After hours and hours of thinking, still nothing.

First page of this sketchbook still blank. ):

Today wasn't the best of the bests, but thank God He was raelly with me at the time.

Studio project, a project that i would had expected to be either an idividual or a group of 2-3 people doing together.

But in the end, it turns out that it became an entire class project, which means.. we do it together.

I mean, man.. its a large scale project!

It requires so much cooperation, so much unity, and we need to understand each other's point of view.

I would be more than willing to make all this 3 happen, but some of my classmates contradicts to my this decision.

Discussion was like hell.. but thank God eventually we decided on a theme already.

Hopefully, we'll do this together, and we'll cooperate.

God, please please give me strength, and after everything is done, i will finally have my sleep. (:

Thanks.

Josiah.

2010-08-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

“But whoever listens to me will dwell safely, and will be secure, without fear of evil.” (Proverbs 1:33)

“The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
You will be like a well-watered garden,
like a spring whose waters never fail. (Isaiah 58:11)

Weak JunJie.

2010-08-28T22:40:00.004+08:00

I came to realise that i am weak in people.

I get hurt easily in the heart, i get worried over little little things that people might say or do..

Yet no one really notice.

But .......

Do we need to be so weak in people? I wonder.....

Well, God.. Teach me. So i will learn. Test me, so i would grow!

Pride.

2010-08-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

Pride may come in every form.. in the form of speech, in the form of actions, in the form of touch etc etc..

However, i realise that it all is categorised into one thing..

called the attitude.

If your attitude doesnt change, no matter how many times people tell you that you have pride in this area.. Nothing will change.

God please soften my heart. Please renew my heart again and again.

Please give me courage to forgive. Please give me the strength to overcome this problem and situation. ):

Heck it to people who hurts me.. God is there!!!!!!!!

nonsense, craps, rubbish. (No link)

2010-08-28T01:15:00.003+08:00

Im very irritated right now..

However, it made me realise that having certain responsibilities does not mean you can compromise with the other.

I have to start thinking through and keep it going.

Certain burdens:

1. Insecure of the structure.

2. Insecure with sheep.

3. Insecure with people.

4. Insecure with relationships.

5. Insecure with my abilities.

But God, it is even said in the bible, there's a way for each and every one of these burdens..

So God, continue to work in my life.

I seriously have no idea how am i suppose to do this a lone, but thanks for being there for me, and thanks for placing people there for me as well.

Thanks for teaching me that there are people there to help me, and give me advice. (:

Okay, The burden's off because you are there. (:

Enjoyed feeling God's presence. (:

Our God, Is an Awesome God!!

Relationship.

2010-08-27T00:16:00.004+08:00

Something i came to thought of....

Have some people forgotten the fact that Christianity is a relationship with Christ, not a religion in Christ?
You seek God not because people tell you to, but you know you have to because you know you have this relationship. (:

God, I shall continue this relationship because i know you are there. (:

How love...

2010-08-25T01:10:00.001+08:00

Realise how a little love can bring someone up.

How a little love matters to others.

I am going to love.. and i am implementing this right now, from today onwards.

2010-08-24T01:14:00.002+08:00

Today's shepherding reminded me of why i post my blog.

lol, the only reason why i kept this blog until now was because i wanted people to read it, be encouraged, and to help them facilitate thoughts so that they could find answers to life themselves. and at the same time, showing people God's love.

I have no idea how far or how well am i doing that..

But if you didnt notice, even if i post certain burdens that i have, i would always post how i will try to solve it with different ways, or asking God for strength. Stuff like that.

Haha, hopefully, my purpose for certain posts will be fulfilled. /:

In any case, while browsing through Facebook, i saw a certain person's profile..

And a question popped up..

"Does it necessary means that the person is spiritual and his or her spiritual walk with God is right when s/he posts many things regarding God?"

hmmm.... o.O

Quantity vs quality?

2010-08-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

I gotta start seeing that it's never just the growth in quantity that matters, but the growth in quality too.

I would see to it that quality and quantity in the people are there, but when the time comes,

i forsake quality and focus on quantity.

Thank God that even though quantity did not grow so much, the quality grew a lot.

And with this new found abilities that our people have, lets make a difference in the quantity.

And continue growing in the quality too. (:

On a side note, i feel fat after this week. ):

Gotta start exercising. (:

Friends.

2010-08-22T02:37:00.007+08:00

Friends that i cherish and love. (:

Of course there are other friends whom i love and cherish, but i just simply did not have the chance to take any pictures with you. But dont worry, just prepare you cameras soon. haha. ^^

Pizza.

2010-08-21T01:27:00.003+08:00

What makes us "Worthy"?

2010-08-20T20:00:00.002+08:00

Well yeah, People seek to be "worthy" in this world.

But what reallly makes us worthy?

We all know people are use to define worthy as 'Fitting in.'

However, I do not agree with this assumption. ):

Apparently, because of this statement, people tries so hard to be people they are not, they try so hard to be perfect when all along, we've been saying no one is perfect. THey try to "fit" in...

An interesting thing that i encountered today during our retention party..

People might see themselves nothing compared to us, but who ever told us to compare?

Who ever said you are nothing to us?

God never picked any of us by seeing whether we are worthy or not.

He picked us up simply because He loves us, simply because he sees us as someone of worth.

Originally we were never worthy, but God made us worthy. Every Single One Of Us!

Insecurities brings us away from that, but if you're insecure, there's a way out.

God always makes a way, to be secure.

Simply that. Be secure. Be secure in God's presence!

Jiayou people.

An Analogy, what ever people say, the possibility of the opposite is there too.

Insecured -> secured in God

do not have confidence -> have confidence in God

just an example.

Forgive 2.

2010-08-20T11:12:00.000+08:00

A Simple Apology from both party works wonders, and is of so much significance. (:

Forgiveness.

2010-08-20T01:13:00.004+08:00

For a long time, i always thought i was a forgiving person, well i guess so..

I could get into arguments with someone, and befriend again in 10seconds..

That's true even now, but i realise that...

sometimes, that is only a surface type.. ):

Inside, i understood immediately that I still hold grudges towards the very few people i got into arguments with, what they said, what they do.. I couldnt forget them.

It couldnt have gotten worst..

The grudge lowered the bonds of friendships.

It hurts, indeed it does. My Heart hurts when this happens.

However, i know this require me to step out of my comfort zone.

So God, renew my heart, restore me, and teach me true forgiveness and love.

Amen. (:

I can only learn from You now. :D

Thanks.

I love my friends, so i am more than willing to learn to forgive and love them. (:

Depression.

2010-08-18T21:16:00.005+08:00

lol, I miss the times at secondary school.

The food, the expenses, the teachers, the friends, the time when i tried out my first outreach at school. (:

I even miss the lifegroup i was once in before, :D

The shorty wong, shorty sim, or shorty lim, all those makes me remember the times when i was still new in church. (:

Haha, okay. Done with the reminiscing.

You know, I've said it before in one of my entries, everyday is a new encounter with God.

We've been through with Anger on an entry i've posted before.. but now..

How bout we shift our attention to depression?

I think depression for me is harder to overcome than anger.

Depression not in the sense of "my life sucks, the whole world sucks, i hate this, i hate that, i do not have friends, i am a failure", things such as this.

But, in the case of getting upset (sad) and takes a while to get myself back into form.

however, it really taught me to have joy in God's presence, of course i will keep it in mind. Thanks a lot! (:

2010-08-17T20:24:00.001+08:00

Time and again, headaches..

But thanks for continuing to give me strength. (:

2010-08-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

Unfruitful day...

But thanks.. for letting me realise the list of things i ought to do.

But no worries to those whom told me that, i wont tire myself up. (:

Recent learnings, dont always listen to God and forget about it.

Think about it, and apply on it.

On a side note, i dont like rainy days.. ):

My Appetite goes double or triple. ):

Contradiction to the previous posts.

2010-08-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

I dont like this feeling..... ):

Joyful JunJie always.

2010-08-15T21:08:00.002+08:00

hmm, great fun? o.O

It turns out that Basketball has made me more aggressive..

Getting pissed easily. (:

Cool down, and be happy! ^^

Friends and Fellowship.

2010-08-14T21:53:00.002+08:00

An account to the previous post:

We shouldnt live alone. (:

We definitely need supports. As said by Pastor Jeff today.

Pi was one of the best ESS i've been to, a reason to accept, reason to love, reason to be there for one another, and how true to say that to love is through action, not just by words.

Thanks for everything God, I enjoyed today though there may be certain situations that causes headaches and heartaches, but thanks for letting me enjoy being with people around me.

A heart shape for Friends. (:

Support.

2010-08-13T23:18:00.001+08:00

How can a person live a life without support?

Even the foundation of a building needs a support of itself, and the support for the foundation requires another support too. (If you think about it logically.)

Everything in this world works together.. I suppose.

Let's live to support others too. (:

But, never forget your ultimate support goes back to the Lord. (:

Jiayou!

Love?

2010-08-13T10:55:00.003+08:00

Recently, i've been thinking a lot regarding 'love'...

and it is very discouraging. ):

God loves each and everyone of us equally and unconditionally

okay okay, we've been through with this and of course it is still important, we even talked about how we should love everyone equally and unconditionally too.

But the question now is.... HOW?

Maybe this is when we should apply the "Love language?"

Different people has different way of showing and feeling loved.

How do we make sure that people feel loved when you are loving them?

I think it depends on individual "languages"? o.O

For example, my language is Physical Touch and Gifts.. maybe when people show me love through service i might not feel as loved, but when people show me their presence maybe i feel loved.

Reluctant to get up, i laid on my bed thinking, and realise that sometimes we dont feel loved cos we dont understand how people show love.

uhh.. life is so complicating, but sometimes it teaches us a lot of significant things. (:

Thanks.

I shall get everyone's love language soon. lol.

JunJie

Mind > Body

STOPPPPP!

Untitled even after long period of no entries.

What am i gonna do?

Hard friends

A letter to sin with a heart filled with God.

God is good, All the time.

So we cry.

Reliance by faith, not by sight.

Sing to the lord, play for the lord.

LIFEGROUP.

So we will run, all together our hearts aflame.

New path, New road.

Cliques, is it really all that's important?

Friends, i love you guys! ^^

333. Helloo, hellooo?

Resolutions.

knock knock.

Open up your ears, and hear......

Thankful, i am fireproof!

Church, not lifegroup.

A great friend

The Right Time.

A touching work of friends.

Friends who cares..

I.... WE need you more.

Is it "Malu"?

Ouch..

Thanks Friends.

Connected.

Let us Pray Pray Pray Pray Pray~~~

Shirt on the Shoulder.

Fire burning heart.

Troubled and as clueless as a monkey.

Loads too heavy

Whoo!

Concerns/fears conquered by God's grace.

run. Run. RUn. RUN! RUNNN!

JWJJ.

serotonin

Hardships and Troubles.

God alone shall reign.

My Best.

In Christ I shall Conquer.

Best.. Friends?

Our life has a goodness in it. (:

A great night, in fact.

JunJie has become cheerful again!

To Be Truthful.

Sabbath!

Imperfections.

Change for the better, i Should.

JunJie.

God's Grace Is Enough.

Relationship WIth God.

Being Offended, and being Offending.

The gifts that's given.

TIme.

Again, God's calling.

Your Best, not You're the best.

Prompts.

Weak but not strong.

Phones.

Josiah.

Weak JunJie.

Pride.

nonsense, craps, rubbish. (No link)

Relationship.

Have some people forgotten the fact that Christianity is a relationship with Christ, not a religion in Christ?You seek God not because people tell you to, but you know you have to because you know you have this relationship. (:

How love...

Quantity vs quality?

Friends.

Pizza.

What makes us "Worthy"?

Forgive 2.

Forgiveness.

Depression.

Contradiction to the previous posts.

Joyful JunJie always.

Have some people forgotten the fact that Christianity is a relationship with Christ, not a religion in Christ?
You seek God not because people tell you to, but you know you have to because you know you have this relationship. (: